About me… I have probably been asked to describe myself more times than I can remember. But you guys would believe anything.. so here goes…

For me, the impression I leave others is quite important. I can only be happy if others see me as being loved, respected, adulated. I ask for admiration from my partners, wishing to be unique and irresistible, showered with gifts, compliments, declarations of love and passion; but, at the same time, I wish to be free!

I like luxury, but I can live without it for I know the value of other things. And that is why I fight and struggle, honorably and with skill. I am an unmatched opponent if I desire something, taking every debt to a suitable end. I am responsible. I am passionate, mature, proud, even self-oriented, generous and a warrior. I have a great need for stability, safety, protection and love, even if I do not admit it and feel strong and able to take care of myself. I am understanding, tolerant, loving and loyal. I despise criticism and from here comes my shyness and the uncertainty and awkwardness in giving it all.

I am a Cancer. I represent all the characteristics of water. I take the shape of my surroundings such as the sea or ocean, molding myself by its forms. But I am also as a river, strong, perseverant, eroding the banks which keep me in one place, overcoming all obstacles. A river is pure and cold. An ocean is deep and mysterious. One cannot see to its bottom, nor can one guess what creatures lurk in the darkness.

I understand and live the present, but I match it to what has happened in the past, what I have felt, what I have seen and suffered.

I need someone who is strong, determined, who will love me and yet, not let himself manipulated as I wish to do. I want to dominate but when I succeed, I do not like my role and I begin to slowly lose my esteem for my partner, for he has not been able to show me he is strong enough to put me in my place, to show me he is a man!

My nature is that of opposition, of confliction. I am happy, and yet I am sad. I laugh, and yet I cry. I am strong, and yet fragile. I care for people, and yet I am a loner. I wish to help everyone, and yet I’d rather not. I wish for everything, and yet I merely wish to be left to go my own way. I want to find true love, and yet I know there are human values just as important: honor, respect, dignity. I take decisions alone, and yet I try to think of those around me. I am smart, and yet I know my knowledge is smaller than a drop in the ocean.

What it all comes down to is this…… I am just me… and yet, not really……….